in the tangle of a thousand ugly tubes
hanging from a rack
was a button you could slowly push
to make the blood die back
and it boiled and it bubbled
in the mouth of the fallen man
so i pushed the plastic button like
don't cry little maniac
if you can
the room began to fade away
just points of light in empty space
waiting for me
it wasn't words that i heard
just the blinding light of a crazy song
blasting through my heart
and i felt everything at once and i was moved
faraway unafraid
nothing to prove
out there past mortality
ego scattered to the wind
unfettered by false reality
we communicate again
and i cursed the shit dimension
and all its pointless suffering
and i want so much to tell them
but what the hell
what the fuck could i say
nobody believes anything anyway
they burst into the bedroom
where i laid awake in bed
terrified in sunlight
and i knew that he was dead
i said don't cry please don't cry
to this day i don't know why